chaotic exam

assalamualaikum wbt
sori sgt2 sbb amek msa yg sgt lma utk update blog..br je hbs smnggu xm final 1st year..well,lps 2hari,result release tros n alhamdulillah sy llus..:)..slps sthun brhmpas pulas n semnggu asyk nanges sbb rsau dgn performance yg sgt2 trok..huhu..YA Allah,trok kot msa tuh sbb rsa mmg xleh buat..blik lps jwb xm nanges..1st day xm MEQ paper..smua skali ada 10 scenario/case n SAQ..YA Allah,sbnrnya soalan xssh sbb mmg klu stdy,uolls akn dpt jwb tp sbb byk sgt2 nk kna stdy n tba2 lost memory tme tuh..rsa nk jerit je dlm dwn xm..tgk mmbe2 smua jwb dgn tnang..msa btul2 xckup..stu soalan essay kna jwb dlm msa 2 mnit..lps dicongak..we have only 1 hour n 45 min to finish all the questions..seriously mmg xckup msa n sooalan mmmg sgt2 la byk..msa tuh mmg doa n jwb smbil hntam je..english tunggang langgang..pstu nma parasites slh tulis bgai..but then,after half an hour answering the question,i get back all the memory and strength..cma time tuh rsa byk gler xleh jwb n lps je paper meq part 2 hbes ptg tuh,tros nanges tresak2..rsa mcm tme tuh down gler..haih..tp lps dpt kekuatan dan pelukan dri akhawat2 trcinta,tros bangkit utk ospe.

the next day tuh..stdy mcm org x btul mlm tuh..mnum 2 gelas nescafe n tdo pkul 4.30 pg..bgn pkul 6 pg...solat pstu smbung stdy smpai kul 7 pg..then drive to rcmp utk check in as 1st session for ospe.ospe nih paper praktikal..means ada 30 station altogether..pstu,ada 2 session dgn fake patient..ada communication skill n etc..stiap station akn ada soalan n figure given etc..stu session trmsuk dgn fake patient tuh hnye 4 mnute..dh la soalan byk..SUbhanalllah.tp still,kta xnanges k.:)paper tuh jela..lps tuh,tros blik qada tdo..bgn tuh trase sgt2 trok sbb tdo trlbih..tdo dlm 3 jam je..YA Allah,bgn tros migrain..nk muntah n slera mkn xde..haih..so,redha jela..bahan nescafe lg..tdo pkul 2pg sbb xthn mngntuk..pg bgn pkul 5,smbung stdy n qiam..haih..xtw knape rsa hdup trok gler tme tuh..chaotic sgt2..mebi sbb stdy last minute n memoryy pn tba2 jd short..grm tol..huhu..

last paper,EMQ..have 150 question n 2 jam stgh je kena jwb..can u imagine,dgn soklan yg berbelit bgai..felt like dying inside theree..i was like is this truly medical person..then,kluar xm hall,crying all over again..then,akhawat2 came n hugged me..givve me strength..bg ayt2 quran sbg pnenang jiwa yg sgt2 kcau nih..pstu ada jgk yg perli duk ckp,nanges mcm xde iman n tawakl kpd ALlAh..Allah,sntap kjp hti,bkn mcm tuh,sy nanges sbb sy xbrusaha sehabis molep..sy rsa usaha sy tgh jln je..pstu fiki nk give up je..sbb tuh sy rsa sy xbrape ykin akn pass.msa tuh xnk fail sbb nk sgt blik klntn..xblik dkt 3 bln..then mama asyk kol a week bfore xm..nanges sbb pnt sgt urus nnek sorang diri..my grandma act having a strok and cant move literally coz right part of her abdominal cant move..so,she need us to lift her and treat everything.so,mama have to do all this work alone bcoz abah are not around act..he's working at tganu..so,mama je ada..

so,stop bout mama..then,dlm 2hri mnunggu result tuh..i cant be alone bcoz ill cry as much as i want..xthu knape prangai jd trok bebeno tme tuh..dbr xyah ckp r..i cant drve..my friend drive me n housemates to the college..hoho.see,how bad am i..tp ptg tuh smpt tdo sbb smlmn xtdo piki bnda2 tuh..solat hjt n etc xyah ckp bape byk buat..coz i know my performances totally bad on that time..sy hnye mmpu fully rely to Allah..tp lps dpt result,nanges lg sbb trharu sy llus..uwaaaa..Allah2,msa tuh,3-4 org dtg pluk sy yg hmpr rebah dpn board result..then,dr gopal came and said,see u in ur 2nd year k..ohmai,itu yg mnyebabkn sy smakin trok mnanges..ouh,how lame n naive sgt2 tme tuh..rsa mcm,hey,why did i cry..n i answered,i cry bcoz now i biliv,Allah's miracle totally awesome..hebatnya kuasanya..sy rsa sgt hina n trok sgt..Allah,thanx for All,u really2 the most awesome ONE.thanx Allah..n brckp psl result,now im officially finish my 1st year..inshaAllah,next target,wanna score in 2nd year..klu llus,tros fly india..;)>.doakan sy utk thun kedua nih ye...n sori for ALl my mistakes..n my bad english.sori again..thanx love.thanx Allah,parent,siblings,Him,friends,and All..for the support n everything la..me really love everyone..;)